the possimsimple

Been talking to hari the whole night
did a little soul searching while working out
realised that deep down, I'm actually really insecure
though I act like I'm not.

Confidence in myself is really low and I have no idea how to get back up
Trust means nothing to me now as I never ever rely on people
Miss the times when I was just a happy go lucky little shithead in primary school
Soccer, going late for class and talking crap during lessons
God, what exactly happened to me in these 3 years

Now, it's all prefect prefect work work npcc npcc
I mean it's all really fun...AT TIMES

But when I look back, I feel really really really angsty
had big shoes to fill the moment I walked into VS
teachers go "oh you're lester's brother?"
I'm never known as Marcus:(((((

Sacrificed a lot of time with my friends just to be by myself
worked my butt off and well, I've gotten really far from that annoying little tit I was
BUT, deep down, I'm really hurt and my 'walls' just go up automatically
and people say I'm an introvert-.-

Sometimes, when I'm busy working and doing all the proposals and stuff
I'd look up at my fellow school mates goofing around
and wonder
'I used to be like them"
and I'd come up with excuses that the current me is better:(

Vice-head, Chairman, BUC
if I had a choice, God, please let me choose again
cos I know now
this ain't the path I wanted