the possimsimple

Been talking to hari the whole night
did a little soul searching while working out
realised that deep down, I'm actually really insecure
though I act like I'm not.

Confidence in myself is really low and I have no idea how to get back up
Trust means nothing to me now as I never ever rely on people
Miss the times when I was just a happy go lucky little shithead in primary school
Soccer, going late for class and talking crap during lessons
God, what exactly happened to me in these 3 years

Now, it's all prefect prefect work work npcc npcc
I mean it's all really fun...AT TIMES

But when I look back, I feel really really really angsty
had big shoes to fill the moment I walked into VS
teachers go "oh you're lester's brother?"
I'm never known as Marcus:(((((

Sacrificed a lot of time with my friends just to be by myself
worked my butt off and well, I've gotten really far from that annoying little tit I was
BUT, deep down, I'm really hurt and my 'walls' just go up automatically
and people say I'm an introvert-.-

Sometimes, when I'm busy working and doing all the proposals and stuff
I'd look up at my fellow school mates goofing around
and wonder
'I used to be like them"
and I'd come up with excuses that the current me is better:(

Vice-head, Chairman, BUC
if I had a choice, God, please let me choose again
cos I know now
this ain't the path I wanted

The right decision.

Ha, today was fun!
but so darn tiring.
up to my neck in np work and I can't escape
ahhhhhhhh what a nightmare

First time playing soccer again since p6
and it's still soooo fun...and tiring:((
Hahaha finally put this lil kid in his rightful place
been on my nerves for three years.
Hahaha it's time he got a taste of his own medicine man

Seems so wrong but I know it's right...somehow

Gratifying to know.

Exams .
Scared outta my wits, prayed really hard the night before for all though I'm not a Christian or Catholic for all my friends;)

At least some of them prayed too:) These people are a gem nowadays man.
I say if you ever meet them, it's a blessing:)
HAHAHA I've to say I'm relieved, the prayer worked so thank you if you see this:)

Great load off my mind, lots more to go.
Tired. Lazy. Still, it's still early to sleep.
I say it's party time.